I realise that earlier i had said that if I have nothing to write then I will write nothing. However for the past three weeks I have not written, not because I had nothing to write,no, the reason is that I had too much on my mind. Everything I wrote seemed to lack objectivity..it was more driven by the emotions of the day. Therefore I decided against publishing any of it. Now things seem to be gaining perspective, slowly but surely the content of my thoughts is regaining its form.
During my trials I made two observations about company. By this I mean the people you have around you. A lot has been written about the company we keep as human being, what most people do not realize is that it is not always by choice. Some people are forced upon you by unavoidable circumstances. That is one thing. The other is that these people can influence your way of thinking to the extent of altering your perception about the world. Yeah the "world" is too general, say altering your perception about life and the daily struggles.
I have found myself working very odd hours, night hours to be more specific. This limits social contact with people of my choice. I am thereby forced to interact daily with the people whom I am working with. As for them influencing me...No. I have made it my business to keep sharp my thoughts, hold on to my values and be consciously aware of changes in my perception. This I do by regularly going home and sharing my latest* yes latest as ave been told I bubble with ideas, and evaluating their feedback.
I believe that we should at least have the luxury of choosing the company we keep.
i have found that more often than not i enjoy my own company the best.
ReplyDeletei should probably try that..
DeleteI once prided my self on my abilities to debate issues i felt passionately about and never backing down even in the face of fierce counter arguments however unreasonable I regarded them. Occasionally i found myself convinced to change my mind. Recently however i have been dabbed "isolationist" by our sister the chairlady. Its not that i am less passionate about things or no longer possess strong opinions, but i have become very particular about who and why I engage in any type of conversation, let alone debate. I still enjoying hearing opposing views and frankly most enjoyable interactions results from these.
DeleteI am lucky to work with people I admire and respect, from whom I am learning everyday and whose influence on me as far as the job goes, could only benefit me. It also happens that one of the questions, asked most often is what do you think? Now, not everybody will agree with your thoughts nor should they, and you often have to defend your ideas, measure them against others. Sometimes you have the best one sometimes not.
Unfortunately outside of work I find that I disagree with most of the people I know on just about everything, my views on personal accountability, politics, relationships, spoilt/whiny kids (this one is deal breaker) etc. I tend to be very clinical and have little patience for emotional responses. That leaves very few safe topics if an argument or sour conversation is to be avoided. I have limited free time, as such I have taken to doing my very best to only spend it with people I can disagree even fight with and have fun doing it (this is such a short list). Outside of that, a lazy day on the couch catching up on my favorite show, a walk, a bike ride, an afternoon at the spa or a nice book….enjoying my own company, priceless!
Wow..amazing stuff there. I hear you.
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